clara engel (blog)

This is the cover of my new EP, which will be coming out on June 19th, on bandcamp (claraengel.bandcamp.com).

Tracklisting:

Song to the Sea Witch (Disembody My Voice)
Not Knowing
Married To the Bone
Lovebirds

Please share this image and help me promote the release! :) 

x

c

I don’t want mercy to be mild 
I want mercy to defile 
The one that cuts my roses down 
Is the one that I’m loving 

I don’t want mercy to be sweet 
I want the sting of your deceit 
The one that drags my pride on its knees 
Is the one that I’m loving 

I don’t want mercy to be kind 
I want the dregs, the bones, the rind 
Sour apple, kiss of spite 
I want to regret you 

All I want tonight 
Is to be without 
Is to be let out

-ce

this is why i don’t vlog.
i need to make another one…almost 2 year between vlogs. bad.

(i never ended up recording in a church. i recorded said album in a studio instead. the album is called ‘ashes and tangerines’) 

a lady with laughing eyes, 
a peacock,
and a phoenix, 
cry
as they guard the filthy gates
that open to the sea 
(what’s the price, mad birds, for my release?)

one is stricken with grief, one is proud, one is incarnate brutality 
we give them royal names and power
now we have perfect enemies! 

and we plan the perfect murder
on that day we’ll charge the open sea  

i plant a severed fist amidst the weeds 
a twisted fruitless tree will rise, come spring
(what’s the price for my release?)

how fast my tears float away
in this weightless night
light catches the dust
dust cakes our lips and dulls our eyes

the moulting body writhes 
overcome with loss and joy
rapture-drunk and freed
(what’s the price for my release?)
 

ce

Harry Partch.

an old photoshoot.
by Jen Hall.

My tribute to Virginia Woolf.

I don’t remember if I’ve posted this on here before (I had a tumblr account before, which I deleted, and I have an unsettling sense of deja vu when I post songs and videos of mine.) A re-post is not the end of the world though, and this time I’ll give some context, because I often am stingy with the context-giving. I wrote to Stefan Orschel-Read a few years ago, (on Myspace! remember that…? I’m still sad that that site became so useless), to tell him that I loved the clothes he made (my introduction was the series he did inspired by Orlando. I love the film Orlando by Sally Potter, and I also love the book by Virginia Woolf). Making fashion inspired by gender-bending literature is a lovely and exciting idea. I didn’t expect that myspace-message to translate into Stefan using my music for the catwalk to his show a few years later, but it did. Watching this still makes me really happy.  

p.s. all the songs used are downloadable on my bandcamp page: http://claraengel.bandcamp.com
(and you wouldn’t believe how much I benefit from some people legally buying my music, it helps me to survive and stuff… and speeds up the progress I can make on my forthcoming releases.)

elliott smith singing a cat stevens song.